I have this complex where when things are going absurdly well for me, I start looking for problems. I start second-guessing everything and over-analyzing ever detail, wondering when it's all going to come crashing down. I think a part of this complex comes from knowing that you can't live life on a plateau. Life is a constant roller coaster of ups and downs, with occasional stops to enjoy the view. So, when I've been enjoying the view for longer than what seems normal, I brace myself... waiting for the next big turn.
With the new job, and everything else going so well for me, I've been bracing myself for a while. And let me tell you, I'm glad I was ready for what lay ahead. Without going into too much detail, the job had some hiccups this week... big enough hiccups to have me stressed and worried about going back on Monday. Not to mention, I stayed home on Friday due to a fairly bad case of strep throat, which I am still recovering from.
Yes, this past week has been complete shit. And yes, I have broken down more times this week than I have in a long time. But if I'm being completely honest, I think this is a set of turns that I can handle.
