Tuesday, February 16, 2021

Oxymoron. Hypocrite. Opposite.

In some ways, I am the happiest I’ve ever been. I know who I am and I know what I stand for. It took almost 30 years to be able to stand up for myself - I wouldn’t change that for the world. 

And at the exact same time, I am the most heartbroken I’ve ever been. Life has beaten me down and shattered my spirits. I feel like such a failure - in some ways I’ve given up. 


Though, I guess it makes sense. It’s the sun coming out when the world is blanketed in snow. It’s feeling nauseated when you’re excited and crying when you laugh too hard. 


If natural contradictions exist in life, it makes sense they’d exist in me.